Early Thursday morning, October 30th, I lost the love of my life.
I know lots of people are not comfortable with the loss of a loved one and the story of what happened. However, my husband left in such a beautiful way, I wanted to share it with you. If you are uncomfortable with reading this account--I truly, deeply understand. ((HUGS))
That night I knew something was wrong, so unable to sleep, sat beside him, as he slept in his big chair downstairs. Suddenly he grabbed the top part of his chest and said he was in awful pain. A moment later, his eyes grew large, and he gasped as though he saw something indescribably wonderful.
I called 911, and I performed CPR until the ambulance came. Our dear children were able to arrive before he left for the hospital, and we were together there when he flew away to heaven.
It didn't seem real that he was gone. We were hugging and kissing him goodbye, telling him what a great job he did, what a wonderful father and husband he was, and how much we loved him--to be at peace and to not worry about us.
I didn't realize it, but in that emergency room, we were encircled round about by a crowd of nurses and doctors--those who had fought so hard to save him. We sang his favorite songs and held him as long as we could. The entire time we were there, those wonderful people surrounded us....their heads bowed, hands folded, many with tears running down their faces. After a time, they trickled from the room--but stayed close by in the hallway.
As we were getting ready to leave, the head RN came in and said, "We see a lot of these, but it is rare to find a family with such love, who handled this moment with such great beauty, strength, and dignity." Then he gave us his card and said, "If you need anything let us know."
I have been married to this wonderful man for 31 wonderful years. Alan is the love of my life. I miss him more than I can put into words.
I want to share something beautiful that happened to me early Saturday morning. As I lay trying to sleep, a small sweet breeze slid across my face...and then his dear lips pressed against mine. My husband kissed me goodbye.
Alan was a servant of God and He loved people. He wanted everyone to know God loved them too, and so I am passing his message on to you dear ones--God loves you. He longs to know you, God wants to share His son and the world He created for you--in a whole different way than you've ever known.
My family and I would deeply appreciate your prayers. May God bless you with joy--even in the midst of great sorrow.
