With Valentine's Day quickly approaching, my heart feels melancholy. Even now, four years later, it is hard to comprehend I am alone. Sometimes I feel the presence of my Beloved, but as time passes I feel his presence less and less. Still, there is a nostalgic magic in the air...
I sense I am saying goodbye to what once was and greeting the possibility of what will be. Often when a person looses their spouse after many years, there is a reorganization of one's identity. It isn't that I lost who I am, it is that I am embracing the woman I have become. I am strong (most of the time), creative, active, loving and hopeful.
A few weeks before my Beloved flew to heaven, he told me if anything ever happened to him, he wanted me to fall in love, get married and be happy. At the time I laughed, not knowing of course, that in a few weeks he would be gone and my life would change forever.
I am finally saying goodbye--my heart finally realizing he is truly gone. I have melancholy moments, but this morning every nerve is tuned to the realization something is coming. My heart, my life, my whole being looks forward to what God has in mind for me. I feel a mixture of fear and joy as I face this great unknown. But Life is like that.
Above you see my reference photo of the beautiful Rena, who is as lovely inside as she is outside. I am so grateful to this lovely young woman for her willingness to model for me.
Happy Paint Party Friday and thank you for dropping by. I look forward to hearing from you. Your comments and art are a constant encouragement to me. May blessing and hope be yours, sweet Friends!