Friday, November 7, 2014

Goodbye My Love -Paint Party Friday


Early Thursday morning, October 30th, I lost the love of my life.

I know lots of people are not comfortable with the loss of a loved one and the story of what happened.  However, my husband left in such a beautiful way, I wanted to share it with you.  If you are uncomfortable with reading this account--I truly, deeply understand.  ((HUGS))

That night I knew something was wrong, so unable to sleep, sat beside him, as he slept in his big chair downstairs.  Suddenly he grabbed the top part of his chest and said he was in awful pain.  A moment later, his eyes grew large, and he gasped as though he saw something indescribably wonderful.

I called 911, and I performed CPR until the ambulance came.  Our dear children were able to arrive before he left for the hospital, and we were together there when he flew away to heaven.

It didn't seem real that he was gone.  We were hugging and kissing him goodbye, telling him what a great job he did, what a wonderful father and husband he was, and how much we loved him--to be at peace and to not worry about us. 

I didn't realize it, but in that emergency room, we were encircled round about by a crowd of nurses and doctors--those who had fought so hard to save him.  We sang his favorite songs and held him as long as we could.  The entire time we were there, those wonderful people surrounded us....their heads bowed, hands folded, many with tears running down their faces.  After a time, they trickled from the room--but stayed close by in the hallway.

As we were getting ready to leave, the head RN came in and said, "We see a lot of these, but it is rare to find a family with such love, who handled this moment with such great beauty, strength, and dignity."  Then he gave us his card and said, "If you need anything let us know."

I have been married to this wonderful man for 31 wonderful years.  Alan is the love of my life.  I miss him more than I can put into words.

I want to share something beautiful that happened to me early Saturday morning. As I lay trying to sleep, a small sweet breeze slid across my face...and then his dear lips pressed against mine.  My husband kissed me goodbye.



Alan was a servant of God and He loved people. He wanted everyone to know God loved them too, and so I am passing his message on to you dear ones--God loves you.  He longs to know you, God wants to share His son and the world He created for you--in a whole different way than you've ever known.  

My family and I would deeply appreciate your prayers.  May God bless you with joy--even in the midst of great sorrow.

14 comments:

Valerie-Jael said...

Beth, I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you. Hugs, Valerie

Faye said...

Beth, first let me offer my sincere sorrow at your loss. Now, read the coincidences I am sharing. My dh died October 30, 2013. His last reactions were similar to what you saw. I was alone with him as he died in our bed, but I was holding him and he knew I was there. We had been married 56 years and 4 months. He also was a man of God and my dh's name was Alan. This year has been hard since almost all the decisions I had to make myself. I had many things about the house that needed repairing. It is difficult. But your faith and family and friends will see you through. My prayers go up for you at this moment. Stay strong and know that others care.

peggy gatto said...

I cannot find proper words to describe my sadness . you are so brave and I will pray for your continued strength. Love to you and your family.

Christine said...

Beth I am so sorry. This is a beautiful tribute and painting. We are here for you.

sheila 77 said...

Hello Beth, sending lots of love from Scotland.
x

Deann said...

Dear Beth I am so sorry that your eternal friend and partner has left your side. I know, and I'm sure you know that he is waiting for you on the other side. Your sweet parting brought tears to my eyes and words are so inadequate at times like these.
Please know that I will remember you and your sweet family in my prayers. May you have the spirit to comfort you and help you in this sad time.
Love, Deann

Lisa at Greenbow said...

Many prayers sent to/for you and your family.

howtooilpaint-barbn said...

So sorry to read about your loss. Stay strong and continue with your beautiful artwork. You are an inspiration to others!

Lois said...

Thank you for sharing Beth. Your family is always in my prayers.

Tammie Lee said...

dear Lady Beth,
thank you for sharing your story. my heart responds and words are hard to find. how lovely that you sent your beloved off in a cloud of love and trust, that is a beautiful gift you have given. i think of you with love and care. This portrait says so much about the two of you, so very beautiful.

Giggles said...

Dearest Beth so so sorry about your loss!! I loved reading about your sweet love and the beautiful way he passed with the love of family at his side!! I couldn't help but tear up! Wishing your family love and healing during this time of grief! I hope you continue to keep his spirit alive here on your blog! I hope you find solace in your beautiful creativity!!

Love and hugs Giggles

Inchwormart said...

What a beautiful testimony of love, the love of family, and the love of God. Blessings to you and your family.

Gay McKinnon said...

Hello Beth, I just found this post. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story so generously and sensitively. Sending you sympathy and love and hugs.

carolann said...

I am glad I read your story. It touched my heart. I have been married for 53 years. My hubby is still with me but my sons dad died 5 years ago and he died at the summer cottage. All his family and Grandchildren were there when he went home to Heaven also.
Beautiful tribute and painting.

Bless you sweet lady of God.