Friday, May 29, 2015

Him Who Loves Me -Paint Party Friday


As summer draws near, the aroma of roses and honeysuckle fill the still warm air.  Sunshine sparkles, as thin wisps of white curl across the blue sky.  

This is my first summer without my sweet husband.  I miss his blue eyes, the way they would glow with excitement as he related stories from his day.  I miss his wisdom, tenderness and kindness and the touch of his lips on mine.  

This week has been very hard.  The numbness which first shields the mind in times of emergency and extreme trauma, has worn away. Renewed grief, like an underground river, flows through each day.  I know this will pass--it is the work of grief to weep and struggle on through--to stay whole, it is something I must do. 

I am grateful that I am not alone when the tears come flooding into my eyes.  The Good Shepherd--Him Who loves me, is here.  He walks beside me, and holds me in His arms when I do not have strength to keep going.

How grateful I am for the Lord.  He is indeed well-acquainted with sorrow, but He is also the author of joy--He is the one who promised, "Joy comes in the morning..."  For now I am safe in the arms of Him Who loves me.

Happy Paint Party Friday, all you wonderful artists and beautiful people. May God bless you, dear ones, with His joy and peace.  Have a lovely weekend and thank you for dropping by.

20 comments:

Giggles said...

This post made me cry as I feel the pain of your grief! Although this will be the toughest year for you as you go through all the firsts alone, speaking about him here keeps his spirit alive!! Thank you for sharing your beautiful love... it's a gift and reminder to appreciate the simple nuances of everyday with loved ones!!

Hugs Giggles

VonnyK said...

Such a beautiful yet heart wrenching post. My heart goes out to you.

Arnoldo L. Romero, MLA said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine how hard it would be to loose my spouse, whom I consider my best friend. May the peace that can only be found in our Lord, creator, savior and redeemer, fill your heart, soul and home.

Christine said...

Oh Beth this is a beautiful painting, I am so sorry you have to go through this. Wishing you continued strength at this difficult time of your life.

GlorV1 said...

Hi Beth. I love your painting. I'm so sorry that this is a very difficult time for you. Hugs and prayers to you.

Abigail Davidson said...

Wishing you strength and peace! I am sorry for your loss -- this is a beautiful post and a great way to remember him. Hope you are well and continue to share your beautiful art!

Valerie-Jael said...

Wishing you joy, Beth.Valerie

LonettA said...

Wonderful and very heart-rending painting! I´m sorry for your loss ... my thoughts are with you!

Leovi - La FotografĂ­a Efectista Abstracta said...

Gorgeous, charming, very emotional!

denthe said...

Oh Beth, this must be so hard for you. Your painting shows your feelings so beautifully. Sending you warm hugs ♥ ♥

Elizabeth Dianne said...

Beth, first of all I want to thank you for stopping by my blog and leaving the most encouraging compliment. It meant the world to me--really!

Secondly, I am so glad I came by here and saw your beautiful heartfelt painting and read your story. I am sorry for your grief but know that your extreme happiness with your husband is part of the pain now. My prayers and love go with you dear one.

My name is Erika. said...

How sad. Its got to be so tough for you. I thought I might lose my husband this past winter when he came down with a serious kidney disease, and I know the thoughts you are having because I kept thinking about a lot of empty days ahead. I hope you find solace in all kinds of places, and I hope your art (your drawing is gorgeous) is one way to help you cope.

BLOGitse said...

Beautiful picture. I hope your life will be easier soon...
'Grief is in two parts. The first is loss. The second is the remaking of life.'
Anne Roiphe

Nordljus said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, Beth. This is such a beautiful, touching painting. I hope your art will help you through your grief.

Faye said...

Your painting is beautiful, Beth. This is my second summer without my sweetie. Although the pain is not as sharp, there are times when I am overcome with memories and grief hits me full force. I rejoice that I also have the Good Shepherd to comfort me. And wonderful friends, some of whom are also fairly new widows.

Aga Gasiniak said...

very touching post. Thank you for sharing

Lisa Isabella Russo said...

Such a moving and beautiful post. What a poignant painting too. I hope it is less difficult for you as time elapses.

Meihsia Liu said...

Hi, Beth, this is such a beautiful and loving post! Your painting is fabulous. Love & Hugs :)

Maarit at Violets Corner said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, I can feel the grief, it has it's pace. The painting is very comforting.

Lots of love and warm hugs
Maarit

Deann said...

This is such a heart rending picture, but at the same time loving and comforting. I am so glad you have your faith to help you through these very difficult times. I am sure the loss of a spouse is the worst lose because it effects your everyday life so profoundly. My prayers are with you and I know the spirit is too.